My addiction started many years ago 33 to be exact , millions of dollars gambled away on poker machines a lifetime of hard work and I am broke , writing this makes me realise how stupid this must sound to you all ,and what kind of a man would allow this to happen. I question myself every day why did I do it ? why couldn’t I stop ? I did try and get help but now I realise it must come from within , if I want any kind of a future I must be true to myself and say no more – and each day I do not gamble is a step in the right direction I hope.
Thank you for sharing your journey with us here on Real Stories. It sounds like things have been incredibly difficult for you and you’ve shown strength and resilience along the way. It sounds like things were tough for a while but you persisted and things are looking up for you now. It is a really common experience to punish yourself or think negative thoughts towards yourself and your gambling – this is something I’m sure many people reading this can relate to. You’ve identified a really important fact – motivation to change must come from within. Unless you are motivated and actively seeking change then it can be very difficult. It can be a long and difficult journey. If you require support along the way then you can contact Gambling Helpline on 1800 858 858 24/7 and can be linked in with a counsellor near you. I would encourage you to reach out if you feel you need some more support!
I wish you all the best and take care!